Sunday, November 11, 2018

Everybody's Story Deserves To Be Told-- Even If You're A Villain

Before I even start the story, I shall make you, my reader, a promise.
This story will have a happy ending.
There, I made it. You’ll need to hang on to that promise, because there’s a lot of bad stuff in the beginning, and even more in the middle, and the area around the end is worst of all. But it will all work out, I promise. Remember I promised.
Are you ready?
Picture it now, red velvet theatre curtains, spotlights just in the middle. Then the curtains are pulled apart and a scene is revealed.
And we are watching a kid get beat up.
What?
Oh, yes. You read right.
The bigger kids surround the shrimp of a boy, teasing him, jabbing with boots and fists and words.
Get over yourself, Miss Malane.
Miss Malane wants to run home to her mommy!
Don’t be such a girl, Malane.
Mac Malane, the little kid, is close to tears. This is the first time this has happened to him, but he knows it won’t be the last. They found out how sensitive he is, his artistic streak, his soft side, and it’s like blood in the water and sharks.
Boys are supposed to be tough.
He hates it. He hates his soft side. He hates the taste of the tears rolling down his cheeks, he hates the blood running down his forehead. He hates being helpless.
But sometimes to be soft you must be strong.
So he just puts his head down and rolls with the punches.
And that’s what he does all year. And the year after that. And the one after that, and after that, and after that.
Until that day.
The day he snapped.
Nobody talks about that day now. It is lost to the progression of time, killed by the refusing voices, kept alive only in the minds of those who were there.
Mac still doesn’t know how it happened. He was there and he was taking the punches and then he was on top of the other kid and punching. Punching repeatedly, mechanically, until some teacher dragged him off. The other kid could’ve died, they had said, if it weren’t for the timely intervention of the teacher.
Nothing was ever the same after that.
Whatever snapped inside of Mac stayed broken. He was no longer sensitive and artistic and kind. Mac Malane became a name to be feared instead of taunted, and he walked the halls with the predatory grace of a shark.
“It’s like his heart is black,” his parents used to sigh, “like a permanent stain killed all the light inside.”
He hated when they said that. He hated them. He, in fact, hated everyone. Everything. Anything to do with what he was before. Anything that made him think of how helpless and weak he used to be. The first few years were rough on him, rough on everyone. Then he managed to control the anger and the hatred and cooled it into something else.
Something worse.
Even in the emotional state he was at the time, his first kill was the hardest.
But isn’t it always?
He hated his parents. He hated them, even after he cooled down. They kept trying to fix him, as if there was something wrong. They kept trying to help him even when he told them he didn’t need help. They were an obstacle and they needed to be removed.
They never deserved it. They were good people. They did their best. Went to church. Brought up a kid and tried to save him when he went down. Did all they could for their family.
But now they’re dead.
He was nineteen when he did it. He killed them and then ran, left the country, laid low in England for a year or so. Then he returned and got caught.
He spent time in jail, but thanks to bad politics and revolts and rebellion over jail time and faulty records, he was out within the year.
He knew he needed an alias. No more Mac Malane, he needed something new. Different. Better.
It’s like his heart is completely black now. Like a permanent stain killed all the light inside.
BlackHeart seemed fitting.
It wasn’t long before word got around in the underground. One thing led to another, and before he knew it, the man known as BlackHeart had over fifty confirmed kills and assassinations and was, once again, someone to be feared.
Was there ever guilt? Regret? Fear?
Of course.
One day he looked in the mirror and all he could see was the blood on his hands.
One day he woke up screaming with the voices of the dead in his head.
One day he made a wish that he’d never snapped that day.
And one day he stopped regretting. He knew it meant he was weak. He knew weakness would no longer be tolerated, not any weakness from him.
So he just stopped.
He would look back, occasionally, and pinpoint the places where things kept going wrong. But he forced himself to view those times as necessary, things that only made him stronger in the long run, things that helped him by harming him.
And one day he looked in the mirror and saw a villain. A strong, powerful villain. Someone to be feared. Someone who was not weak, sensitive, soft.
 Someone who he never wanted to be.
And here our story ends.
You see, I lied. And there’s something to be learned from this story, too.
Sometimes people break their promises. Sometimes you just can’t trust anybody, no matter how good their lies sound.
Sometimes people do bad things. Sometimes people don’t get redeemed after they do bad things. And sometimes when people do bad things, they just can’t stop doing bad things and they have to keep going.
And sometimes?

Stories don’t all have happy endings.
-BlackHeart 

Introducing The Cause Of All My Emotional Problems (Or At Least 40% Of Them)

Hello, dear readers!
This time, I'm not even going to talk about how it's been forever since I've posted... I know it's been nearly a month, but I promise I tried. 
In the meantime, I've been sucked into a world of... well, of a lot of things. It started out simply enough but soon became a swirling whirlpool of secrets, priorities, misguided betrayals, misunderstanding... a place where the black and white I'd originally seen blurred into about twenty thousand shades of grays and nothing is as it seemed.
Disclaimer... none of it was my fault.
Well, okay, maybe 20% of it is, but we can blame all the rest on the friend I'm writing these stories with. You know who you are.
Anyway, the universe we're writing/have written uses my main characters who you already know and of course love, Clair Fury and William Helado, and two of my friend's OCs, Black'Fang and O'don. I just want to throw out that I don't own them but I'm using them in my blog anyway because I'm a terrible person so that I can expose my lovely readers to the trauma my friend has exposed me to :)
So here are the first two stories as to how it all began!
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Clair Has An Awkward First Encounter With A Space Mercenary 

Clair's POV 
I slip through the crowd, eyes on the passing faces and the description in my hand.
Black hair up in a bun.
Purple markings on the skin.
Most likely wearing a suit.
“Shouldn’t be too hard to find,” I mutter. Nevertheless, it takes a good fifteen minutes to find anybody similar to the description. When I find them, I follow orders; wait till they don’t expect it, wait till their back is turned. Then make the move.
“Excuse me, ma’am?” I reach to tap on their shoulder.
They turn around.
Wait. Oops.
“Yes?”
“I-I’m sorry, sir.” I catch myself blushing. “They didn’t give me much detail.”
“I get that a lot, no big deal,” he replies easily with a smirk.
“They told me you were the person to see.”
“About?”
“I’d like to get into the… modeling project. From what I heard, you’re the one with connections.”
“Interesting…”
He tilts his head—I get the feeling he’s sizing me up.
“You’ve got the jawline for it.”
I’m at a loss.
“Thanks…?”
“I could probably get you in, no trouble…”
I can’t help it—my face lights up. Never before has this been so easy.
“…For a price.”
Great. Of course...
“I have connections of my own. You’ll get money.”
“Money first, action later.” He almost looks like he doesn’t expect me to pay up right away.
“Fair enough.” I pull out my phone, tapping the case. “You want to take money right away?”
“As soon as you can get it to me. Before I’ll get you in.”
“I can bring it in right now.” I rapidly type out a text and send it. “They’ll be here in a second.”
His eyebrow arches slightly.
A moment later, a tall man with dark sunglasses approaches us with a suitcase. I take the bag and the man leaves.
“How much?” I ask, lifting the bag.
“Six hundred.”
“Perfect.” I hand him the suitcase. “You happened to pick the exact amount I brought.”
He opens the case, rapidly confirms the contents, and snaps it shut again.
“You’re in.”

   I start work the next day. O’don, as he called himself, managed to get me in as his secretary. So at nine in the morning, I pick up a white latte and head into the hub of one of the largest modeling agencies out there.  I find O’don talking to a couple of tall men in black suits—much like the men I’m surrounded by on a daily basis.
“Tell the old man the job’s done and whatever that skimpy little woman says it’s the truth.”
 I focus on the conversation, however, I had purposely positioned myself in a way that they wouldn’t be able to detect me in the crowd.
Technically, I’m just dropping in. Not really eavesdropping if it’s my job, right?
However, this tactic fails, because as soon as I came close to the perimeter of their small area, the model waved them away.
“You made it,” he greets as if nothing suspicious just happened.
“Yeah, traffic was a bit insane today.”
He tilts his head slightly, studying me. “Ready to start today’s work?”
I hand him the coffee. “Always.”

  It’s not until later when I find a chance to do my real job here. I’ve been kept following O’don around all day as he talks to various people, most of them other models, nearly all of them girls. Nobody notices me and I remain anonymous behind my clipboard, covertly scanning the people around me. Late afternoon is when I finally get a chance to get my hands on a computer and do some digging.
“I’ll be back soon,” he tells me, walking out of the office.
“I was just going to get a little paperwork done in here,” I reply. “Should I wait for you?”
He barely glances back at me. “If you want.”
And he’s gone.
I quickly sit at the computer and pull up all the records of the models in the agency. With keywords like ‘recent’ and ‘male’, I find the one I’m looking for. He’s hiding as a model in this agency, posing as a newcomer to the industry ‘with potential’. That means if I just keep my eyes open long enough, I should get my chance.
O’don returns just as I finish up. I quickly click out of what I was doing and open a random fan-fiction tab.
“Still here?”
I close the tab and the laptop. “I just finished.”
“Fan-fiction? Didn’t think you’d be into that.”
I blush awkwardly. “You never know about these things.”
“Hm.”
I stand up from the desk, picking up my clipboard. “If you don’t need me for anything, there’s… someone I need to find here in the agency.”
Just as I say this, I see the one I’m looking for.
And he sees that I see him.
“Well—“ O’don begins, breaking off as I brush past him.
“Be right back!” I call as I sprint out the door.
“What?”
I’m too far away to reply. The one I’m chasing is fast and not above shoving people and objects in my way as he escapes. I dodge a potted plant, spilling brown earth on white tile, and put on a burst of speed. If I can get him before he reaches the doors…
With another burst of energy, I tackle his legs just before he would open the door. We both go crashing to the ground, and I manage to scramble onto his back before he can move.
“You’re under arrest by order of A.R.R.O.W for the kidnapping and murder of Travis Swartz,” I announce, retrieving a pair of handcuffs from my pocket and securing the man’s wrists.
The sound of applause startles me. I glance up to see O’don leaning against the wall, clapping.
“Well handled,” he says smoothly, as if this is a completely normal thing to see your secretary do.
I stand up, brushing myself off, keeping one eye on my catch and one eye on O’don.
“All in a day’s work,” I reply evenly.
“A.R.R.O.W, huh? Never heard of them.”
I notice the surrounding people staring with curiosity.
“Not so loud,” I mutter, glancing around. “We tend to work outside of the public eye.”
He shrugs.
I lean down and haul the handcuffed man to his feet. “I should get him away from here.” I glance back at O’don. “I’m fired now, I’m assuming.”

He takes a sip of his coffee. “…Yeah. You’re fired.”
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Clair Has A Slightly Less Awkward Encounter With A Mercenary And They Become Roommates 


                                                    ... A Few Weeks Later...
Clair's POV
“I’m moving out,” I announce.
Dad blinks. “Wait, really? This is the ultra-big life-changing news you had to share?”
I shrug. “Big news to me.”
“I mean… I figured it was only a matter of time. Believe me, I’m happy for you.”
“Happy for me, or happy that I’ll be gone most of the time now?”
He rolls his eye. “Maybe it’s both.”
“Love you, too, Dad.” I grin.
“When are you moving?” he asks, changing the subject.
“Tonight, hopefully. I have a line on a house for cheap rent.”
“Nice,” he nods.
I glance down at my watch. “Speaking of, I should head out. I’m supposed to meet with the landlady in like, ten minutes.”
He steps forward for a quick hug. “See you later?”
I nod.
“If all goes well.”

  I step out of the car and immediately see the landlady, standing out in front of the door.
“Hi there,” I call with a broad smile, walking closer.
“Glad you could make it,” she says lightly, shaking my hand. “Care to see the inside?”
“If it’s as pretty as the outside, I can’t wait,” I reply, looking up at the white exterior and dark blue door.
She smiles and opens the door. “Now this is a two-story house, but I decided to open it up to two people, to help cut the rent. So, you’ll have a roommate.”
“That’s fine,” I respond, eyes adjusting to the dimness of the hallway.
The landlady leads the way into the living room. “Still here?” she calls to someone inside.
“Yep,” replies a somewhat familiar voice.
I step into the living room and blink. I recognize him as O’don, the guy from the modeling agency I worked at a few weeks ago.
Wait. Something’s different.
His ears, instead of looking like normal human ears, are long and pointed. He also has interesting purple markings under his eyes and a snake-like tattoo on his arm. He half-turns and sees me.
“Oh. Hey.”
He’s decidedly somewhat wary, now. Not quite like the calm, confident man at the modeling agency.
“Hi,” I reply with a little wave, deciding not to bring up the change in appearance… yet.
“You two know each other?”
“Kind of,” I admit.
“Ah,” the landlady says, looking a little caught off guard.
“We’ll get along fine,” I assure her, turning away from O’don. I don’t know about him, but I definitely don’t want to give up this chance at a cheap two-story house. I suppose if he really doesn’t like it, he can leave.
“Sure,” O’don agrees, handing a sheaf of papers to the landlady. “I signed everything already.”
I smile at the landlady. “And I’d be glad to go ahead and sign the papers, too.”
“You haven’t even seen the rest of the house yet…”
I shrug. “If it’s as nice as what I’ve already seen, I’m sure I’ll love it.”
O’don gives me a weird look, which I catch out of the corner of my eye.
The landlady hands me a stack of papers, which I read through carefully and sign.
“It’s yours,” the landlady announces when I hand her the papers. She hands both me and O’don a copy of the keys and leaves.
I half-turn to face O’don.
“So… the ears?”
He gives me a look and walks out of the room.
I frown at his swiftly retreating form and turn around, examining the living room. The walls are white and all the furniture is dark fake leather. There’s lots of windows, giving the room a light, airy effect.
I step into the hallway and find a kitchen across the hall. This, evidently, is where O’don went after rudely leaving me in the living room.
I walk in and lean against the counter. He ignores me.
“Are we not going to talk about the whole, ears and tattoo thing?”
“No.”
I frown at him again. At least he isn’t just going to leave the room again.
“Why not?”
He just looks at me and sips his coffee.
“I mean, you already saw I’m not technically a normal person,” I point out. “And I’m more curious than anything.”
He leans against the counter, giving me a very obviously fake smirk.
Of course, now that I’ve seen his real side, it doesn’t take much to recognize the fake exterior.
“I’ll tell… for a price.”
I roll my eyes.
“Seriously, if we’re going to be roommates…”
He raises an eyebrow, waiting for me to finish.
“Keeping secrets isn’t going to last long.”
He looked a bit taken aback.
“Honesty is the best policy,” I remind.
“Honesty? Really?” He smirks dryly. “What kind of world do you live in, kid?”
I fold my arms, regarding him coolly. “I’ll find out sooner or later.”
“Personal space is my policy,” he replies, turning to leave.
“I mean… the information sharing doesn’t have to be all one-sided here,” I offer.
He stops, barely glancing back at me.
“I’d answer any of your questions… providing the answer wouldn’t endanger anyone,” I continue.
He sighs. “What’s your favorite color?”
I blink. Okay. That was unexpected.
“Yellow.”
“Weird,” he comments.
“Okay, now you get to tell me what’s up with your ears.”
“That’s not how it works. You can ask me a question on the same level as my question.”
“So we’re, like, going to work up to that? Fair enough.” I think for a moment. “Uh.. What’s your favorite food?”
“Coffee.”
“That’s not food,” I object.
“Yellow is a weird color,” he replies, finally turning to face me.
I roll my eyes. “Fine.”
He tilts his head. “Want to continue with the questions?”
“Sure, why not?”
“Alright… what’s your favorite animal?”
“Foxes.”
“Alright, nice. Your turn.”
We continue like this for a while, barely moving up in the intensity of our questions. He refuses to give anything. I won’t give much up either. We’re almost at an impasse when O’don slips up.
“What does the acronym of your agency mean?”
I blink, startled by this level of question.
He realizes the mistake. “Wait—“
“No, you already asked the question,” I announce.
He gives me a purely done look.
“Actually, nobody really remembers what the initials stand for. The meaning was lost, like, a century ago after the organization first shut down and was restarted.”
“How about… A.R.R.O.W; A Really, Really Odd Wheelchair,” he suggests.
I laugh.
“Or—“
“Wait a minute,” I interrupt. “You’re just doing this to get away from the question game.”
He groans in response.
“Would that level of question get me an answer about the ears?” I ask, mostly out of curiosity.
“Absolutely not.”
I sigh. “Worth a try. What about the markings?”
“Possibly.”
“Oh?”
He looks at me. “How about, I get to ask you two questions, of any depth, and then I’ll tell you about the ears. And the markings.”
Finally. “Fair enough. Ask away.”
“Are you single?”
Wait. What?
“Uh. Yeah, currently.”
“And… what’s your number?”
I give him a weird look. “Wait, is this whole thing just you hitting on me?”
“Yes.”
At a loss for words, I just give him another weird look.
He shrugs. “Can’t blame a guy for trying.”
“I’m flattered, but—“
“So, the ears are because I’m not from Earth. The markings are a sign of my clan.” He yawns carelessly, as if it didn’t matter much.
Now I’m just really confused.
“Okay, wait, let me get this straight. You’re an alien, and you pretended like that was a big deal just to weirdly hit on me?”
“Yep.”
I cross my arms. “You’re really weird.”
“Glad  you noticed.”
I glance down at my watch. “Oh, uh. I should go back and get my stuff. I told my dad I’d be back.”
“You still live with your dad?” Something flickers across his face, but it’s gone before I can read it.
“Not anymore, I don’t.”
“You seem awfully anxious to move away from him.”
I shrug, already turning to leave. “I love him and all, but we don’t exactly see eye to eye on, like, anything, and I’m super tired of fighting with him.”
“Ah.”
“I’ll be back soon.”
“See you then.”

Packing up my stuff took much less time than I expected. Arguing with my father about having an alien for a roommate was much more of a hassle.
He didn’t want me around ‘that kind of person’.
I pointed out it would be easy for me to keep my eye on a potential threat if I’m roommates with him.
He told me nobody knows what kind of stuff he’d been doing in space before coming to earth.
I informed him O’don works at a modeling agency and he helped me with the modeling mission a couple weeks ago.
He said that didn’t mean anything.
I pointed out that this was how my friendship with Will started.
He mutters something about “because that worked out so well”.
And I leave.
After making my way across town, I arrive at my new house. Shifting the suitcase in my hands, I unlock the door and step inside, noting the distinct scent of O’don still in the house.
“I’m back,” I call.
“Neat,” O’don replies from the living room, where he’s watching TV.
I poke my head into the doorway.
“Did you pick a bedroom already? The landlady said there were three. I’ll take whichever you don’t want.”
“Mine’s the blue room at the top of the stairs,” he replies, not even looking up.
“Alright, cool.”
I drag my stuff upstairs and look around. Immediately on the right is a closed door—I assume that’s O’don’s room. One door slightly open reveals a bathroom. I open the next door further down the hall and find a yellow bedroom decorated with white and light grey furniture, much like my old bedroom. The next bedroom I find is painted white with dark furniture, like the living room. I go back to the yellow bedroom and drop my suitcases.
Unpacking takes up less time than packing did. All I need to do is sort out my clothes into the dresser and put up all the books I brought onto the shelf in the closet, and I’m finished. Halfway through, however, I get the unsettling feeling someone’s watching me. I wait one, two seconds, and then whirl around quickly, claws unsheathing instinctively.
O’don raises an eyebrow. “A bit jumpy, are you?”
I hide a sigh of relief. “You startled me.”
“I noticed.” He leans against the doorway, watching me. “Nice knives.”
I look down, having barely realized they had come out. “Uh. Thanks.” I quickly retract them, a little embarrassed. “You shouldn’t sneak up on people like that.”
He shrugs. I continue unpacking.
“That’s a lot of books,” he comments.
I glance at him. “I read a lot.”
“Apparently.”
O’don yawns and moves to sit cross-legged on my bed, still watching me unpack.
“So what’s the deal with your dad? Is he in the A.R.R.O.W business, too?”
“He’s the leader of the entire organization, so I guess so.” I keep my eyes on my work.
“Must be nice.”
“Not always.” I shrug. “He gets paranoid.”
“Don’t most fathers?”
“He’s not my real dad,” I mutter, remembering our argument earlier.
The conversation dies.
“You never did give me your number,” O’don reminds me.
I sigh. “Listen, I’m just going to warn you, people dating me basically  never turns out well for, like, anybody.”
“Why is that? Your father?”
“Kind of.” I put the last book on the shelf and turn around, task completed.
I mean, it is my father’s fault I’m in the business. And this business is dangerous for relationships.
“So if that’s a warning… what if I don’t listen?” He gives a charming grin.
“You’re an interesting and nice person, and I don’t want you to get hurt,” I reply, leaning against the dresser.
“And that means…?”
“No. Sorry.”
He shrugs, then goes for dramatics. “Oh, it’s no big deal…” He stands up with a deep sigh. “I’ll be downstairs, recovering from a broken heart.” He starts out of the room and glances back. “I’ll try to survive,” he adds, heading down the stairs.
I know full well this is an act, and he knows I know. A moment later, he pokes his head in the room.
“Want some ramen?”
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And this is just the beginning, dear readers...
You haven't met Black'Fang yet, or found out what happens to Will, or heard of all that occurs between a crazy group of roommates, or anything yet. With any luck, next weekend will bring the next story for you guys as long as I don't completely give up by then. Until then, go and read my guest post on my mom's blog!(  http://fourlittlepenguins.blogspot.com/ )
--Kaytie

Saturday, August 11, 2018

Icarus, The Dead Legend (They Don't Tell You Everything)

Hello, dear readers! It's been busy around here this summer, but hopefully, my weekends will be more relaxed as school starts so I'll be able to post here more often! 
Anyway, I've always found myself drawn to the mythological story of Icarus. I don't remember where I first heard it, and I don't know why I like it so much, but there it is. There's something about the thought of hopelessly chasing the sun and falling, recklessly, to the cold sea below. Anyway, some more of my feelings on that should be explained more eloquently in the poem below. 
For those of you who don't know, here's a brief summary of Icarus's story:

Icarus  (IK-uh-rus)
Icarus (son of Daedalus) dared to fly too near the sun on wings of feathers and wax. Daedalus had been imprisoned by King Minos of Crete within the walls of his own invention, the Labyrinth. But the great craftsman's genius would not suffer captivity. He made two pairs of wings by adhering feathers to a wooden frame with wax. Giving one pair to his son, he cautioned him that flying too near the sun would cause the wax to melt. But Icarus became ecstatic with the ability to fly and forgot his father's warning. The feathers came loose and Icarus plunged to his death in the sea.

                         Icarus, The Dead Legend (They Don't Tell You Everything)

-I-
Imprisoned. Wrongly imprisoned. Daedalus paces the beach.
Icarus stands at the edge of the ocean. He is young. Unworried. Carefree. Reckless.
Daedalus sees the wings of the birds that circle far above.
"If only we could fly."
Tired of standing still and watching his father worry, Icarus picks up feathers that have fallen and runs, waving them in his fists. He is carefree. He leaps and the feathers flutter. 
Daedalus smiles.
"We have work to do, son."
Icarus doesn't want to work. He drags his feet as they enter the labyrinth. He casts longing glances at the sun glinting on the sea.
They are busy all through the dark night.

-II-
The sun is rising as they exit the labyrinth. 
Daedalus worries.
"The wind is not yet strong enough."
Icarus was told that they were going to fly. His eyes are filled with stars and his bones feel as light as the feathers on his back. 
He does not want to wait.
"Wait."
Icarus jumps up and down. Impatient. Reckless. 
"We will fly at noon."

-III-
Icarus was not as young as they tell you. He was not a little boy. He was reckless, yes, easily won over, impatient, careless. But he was old enough to know better. Under ordinary circumstances, he would have known better than to chase the sun.

- IV-
Noon approaches. Icarus is eager. Daedalus worries.
"The wind is strong enough. My son, we will fly."
Icarus leads the climb to the top of the cliff. Daedalus checks and double checks straps.
"My son, my son. Remember my words.
Do not fly too close to the sun. The wax will melt."

-V-
(This is all they will tell you of the father's words.
They warn against aiming too high.
They warn about the heat.
Passion could burn the world down, they say. )

-VI-
"My son, do not fly too close to the sun. The wax will melt and you shall fall.
But take care and do not fly too low. The sea spray, the foam, the waves, will weigh down your wings and you shall fall. 
Do not fall."

-VII-
They fly.

-VII-
The sun is overhead. Bright, yellow, warm. Icarus never knew cold until he tasted the sun. 
He never knew anything could be so bright
So warm
He never thought he could be so cold
His wings angle, and he catches a draft of air going up.

-IX-
Daedalus shouts, warning against the heat.
It is hopeless.
He knows it's no use.

-X-
Icarius hears his father. He throws his head back and laughs. Recklessness surging in his heart and lifting him just as much as the wind does. 
He feels the wind blow back the dark curls from his freckled cheeks, the blue eyes the color of the sea.
He spreads his wings.
He flies.

-XI-
(They don't tell you he was unafraid and deliberate. They blame it on the sun. They claim it was a spell, a trance. 
They don't tell you it was deliberate.
It is terrifying to believe, because we know it would be the same for us.)

-XII-
Daedalus knows he is gone. 
He weeps, still flying across the sea to his homeland and his freedom.
His son is gone, half of his heart is at the bottom of the sea. 
"My son, my son, I warned you.
Farewell, my son."

-XIII-
Icarus falls.
The wax runs hot on his back and feathers float past him as he plummets.
He laughs as the harness chafes his shoulderblades and death approaches. He is unafraid and careless. He had tasted the sun, and he thought that was all he needed.

-IXX-
The sea rushed to greet him. Waves caught him and tossed him until gravity pulled him down.
The sea is cold, cold, cold. So far away from the sun. Icarus lies back on the ocean floor and greets death. 
Death does not take him. One so young, so full of fire, it cannot touch him without fear of being burnt. 
Icarus waits.

-XX-
He does not regret. For the first thousand years, he does not regret. 
But the thousand and first year, it comes.
Lying there in the silence, waiting, waiting, watching the sun filter through the water above. 
What is he missing up there?
He cannot escape his thoughts. It is so quiet and he is alone. 

-XXI-
(They never talk about after the fall. It is assumed he died. But so often, when one is assumed dead, that is not the case.)

-XXII-
Lifetimes later, they find him. Drag him up from the depths.
He struggles. Tries to explain, with a throat full of salt and a tongue clumsy with an ancient language.
He does not want to rise. Rising caused so much pain before. He cannot go upwards, back to the light.
They do not know what to do with him.
Icarus, they wonder. Is this the boy who the sun killed?

-XXIII-
He cannot explain that the sun did not kill him.
He is not dead.
The sun did nothing.
He chased light and warmth and love and life.
They abandoned him.
He cannot explain and they wouldn't understand.

-IXXX-
(They wouldn't believe him. 
It is too terrifying to believe him. 
We are all Icarus. We all have a part of his flaming spirit.
We all would chase the sun given the chance.
We all dream of flying. 
Airplanes are proof of this, skydivers and parasailers. We want to fly but we must give ourselves restraints so that we do not chase the sun.
We have learned our lesson from the boy of the sea.)

-XXX-
(I am Icarus.
I ache for the sky. I long to fly. 
The sun is so warm, so bright.
Down on this earth filled with hate and discrimination and violence and war,
I am so, so cold, and so blind.
The sun promises warmth.
I long to fly.)

Saturday, July 14, 2018

I Have Absolutely No Inspiration For A New Blog Post, So Here's A Poem About Having No Inspiration


My brain is empty
Empty empty empty
I do not know what to write
I'm just
Spewing words

Hmmm. Let's find something to talk about
Favorites? My favorite color? Animal? Song? Book? Author? Art medium?
I like pencils and yellow and lots of music
And Brandon Mull and giraffes

Man, this poem has no flow
No editing, no editing, just write
I'm just
Spewing words

Here's a poem written
While not knowing how to write
It goes to show inspiration is necessary
For good work

But not always essential,
Because look, I've got a blog post here
Despite having no inspiration
I created a poem anyway

Sure, it isn't that good
It's not pretty and won't win a prize
But I finally finally finally published a new post
So that's out of the way and I'm good till next week

My brain is empty
Empty empty empty
I do not know what to write
I'm just
Spewing words

Another Short Story, part three

Hello again, dear readers! I know, I keep forgetting to post here every weekend. But this past couple weeks have been super busy, and today is the first day in awhile I've had time to do this. So here I am! About this story… to be honest, I didn't have a specific end goal in mind for this story. I didn't really plan this out. So I'm not sure how this is going to go. Just let me warn you, this isn't the best of my writing! Bear with me, though, and next weekend I'll have a better blog post.
Andrea taps her foot impatiently. "She probably isn't coming back, you know."
I sigh. "Give Clair a chance, Andrea. She's only been gone a minute."
"She's a number seven," she insists. "You can't trust someone that dangerous."
Naria groans. "Give it a rest already. She's probably just really smart or something. She doesn't act dangerous, anyway. And she seems to have it under control."
"I'm not sure," Surrea says quietly, "but I think we can trust her."
I nod, forgetting for the thousandth time that Surrea can't see it. "I agree with Surrea. We will wait here."
Someone knocks on the door before opening it. Clair walks in with a stack of folders and bundle of pens.
"After an argument with my father and some extensive research for loopholes, I managed to pull some strings so you guys can leave."
Andrea jumps up, but Clair holds up a hand.
"On the condition that I get a full profile on all of you for the records. I couldn't get rid of all of the procedure, but I lessened it. I just need your names and your abilities." She motions to me. "I have yours already, I assume. You're just immortal, right?"
I nod slowly. I wouldn't call it "just immortal", but I understand she means I don’t have other special powers. Clair opens one of the folders, writes something down, and asks for my signature. I write it down quickly and turn to the other girls.
"Co-operate," I whisper. Andrea rolls her eyes, but the others nod.
Clair looks at our group. "Who's next?" she asks, obviously straining to sound cheerful. I suspect this incident has been fairly stressful for her.
After some hesitation, Naria steps forward. "I'm Naria De'Andra. I… I can perform chaos magic."
For an instant, Clair looks almost afraid. The expression is gone instantly, hidden as she nods and writes in another folder with studied concentration. Naria notices, though, and turns away irritatedly.
Clair takes another folder. "Next?"
Andrea nudges Surrea, who stiffens slightly, but nods with resolve. "I am Surrea Hudson," she announces clearly, then hesitates, as if the next words are hard to say. "I can see people's worst fears," she adds softly.
Clair gives her a concerned, almost tender glance as she writes this down. "And you?" she asks, turning to Andrea, who crosses her arms defensively.
"I'm Andrea Derris," she replies with an edge to her voice. "I can tell, on a scale of one to ten, how dangerous someone is."
Clair scribbles in the last folder, looking a little puzzled by Andrea's hostile tone. "Is that what you meant when you said I’m a number seven?"
Andrea nods sharply. "The armed agents we met earlier were only number threes, if that's any comparison."
Clair quickly covers up her shocked expression by shuffling the folders and pulling three pens out of the bundle she brought.
"I need the three of you to sign these," she says quickly. "And then you can go."
The girls sign their respective folders rapidly. I can tell they're ready to get out of here.
"I'll walk you guys out," Clair announces. "To make sure there's no more trouble. Word might get around fast here, but I think my father is trying to keep this under wraps, so most of the agents probably haven't heard you're  free to go."
We follow silently as Clair leads us through a maze of hallways. I step behind Surrea and place both hands on her shoulders as we walk.
"Can you do something for me?" I whisper, barely audible.
She nods with a small sigh. "I'll do it. I'm curious, anyway. She's a level seven," she whispers back.
I stand behind her as she slips her blindfold off and stares at Clair.
Clair turns, looking at Surrea, an unreadable expression on her face. "Don't…"
Surrea stops abruptly, grey eyes wide, never looking away from Clair. She struggles for breath and steps backwards, running into me. I quickly pull the blindfold back over Surrea's eyes. She normally reacts badly when she takes off the blindfold, but this is the first time she's been unable to breathe.
Clair is walking towards us quickly. "Is she okay?" she asks worriedly, looking at me.
"I’m okay," Surrea replies for me. "But…"
Clair takes a deep breath. "I'm sorry. I probably should have warned you."
"I shouldn't have intruded…"
"It's fine," Clair replies quickly, staring at the floor. After a moment, she looks back up with a forced smile. "Let's keep moving. The sooner we're outside, the better this situation will turn out."
After about ten minutes of walking, I put a hand on Surrea's shoulder.
"She's afraid of only three things," she whispers before I can ask.
I squeeze her shoulder encouragingly.
"She fears failure. She's terrified to lose somebody else the way she lost someone once. And…"
She shudders slightly.
Clair glances back, and I can tell she can hear what Surrea's saying. She doesn't try to stop her.
"You don't have to tell me the last one," I whisper. Surrea seems to be struggling to articulate Clair's third fear.
She nods and falls silent as we reach a set of double doors. Clair punches numbers into a keypad and leads us out into the fresh air and sunshine.
"If you need any sort of transportation, I'm sure I could call in a couple favors," she offers, but I shake my head.
"Naria can transport us," I reply confidently. "Thank you."
She nods. "I'm sorry about all of this. If it were up to me…"
I shrug. "You did what you had to."
Naria creates a portal and Andrea jumps through before the rest of us can do anything.
Clair watches her go, then turns to Surrea.
"I…" she starts, but Surrea holds up a hand.
"Do not worry about me," she says calmly. "I will keep your secret. If you are ever in need, let us know and we will help." She hands Clair a piece of paper with her phone number on it.
Clair nods and watches as Surrea steps though the portal. I wave to her as Naria and I walk through the portal together.

The last thing I see before the portal collapses is Clair, waving back.

Saturday, May 26, 2018

Another Short Story (Part Two)

Chapter Two

Clair looks hurt. Naria quickly undoes the silence spell so that I can smooth things over. Naria, Andrea, and Surrea all look to me to fix the situation. It's always been like that. 
"I can explain."
Clair crosses her arms. "I was going to get you out."
I hold up my hands in a disarming gesture. "We had a plan before you even captured me. I didn't have a way to tell them to call it off." I motion to the other girls.
Clair steps inside the room and closes the door. "Who are you?" she asks, looking at the other girls. I notice her eyes linger on Surrea's blindfold. 
The girls look at me, and I nod to them. 
"I'm Surrea."
"Andrea."
"Naria."
"I assume you three were the cause of the trouble in the east quadrant earlier?" Clair asks, leaning against the wall.
They look at each other uncomfortably. 
"Yeah, that was us," Andrea admits. 
Clair sighs. "I'll be back. Stay here, and I might be able to work something out." 
"What if we break out while you're gone?" Andrea asks brightly.
Clair doesn't look amused. "Then you'll be caught again and put in seperate cells, with special measures taken to make sure you can't escape. Trust me, staying here is your best option. I'm just trying to help you guys."
"Because taking Arabella prisioner is helping us," Naria mutters under her breath. 
Opening the door, Clair pauses for a moment. "To be completely honest, I have no idea why we took Arabella. It was not my call, and it wouldn't have happened if I were involved in planning this maneuver." She shakes her head with a slight smile. "Probably why I wasn't involved."
For half an instant, I notice just how tired she seems. She's so young. Who got her tangled up in this stuff? This business is no place for most adults, much less a kid like her.
Clair steps out of the door. "I'll be right back. Hang tight." She pulls it shut, and I hear the lock click. 

Sunday, May 13, 2018

Another Short Story (Untitled So Far)

Hello dear readers!
I know, I didn't post the last couple weekends... again. I was out of town/away from my computer last weekend and the weekend before, I was busy with some projects. But I have an idea for another short story, and I think/hope this one will be better than the last one I did. I originally was going to do a short story for Clair but then I got a cool idea for something else that works better for someone else (although I'm still going to put Clair into it). Anyway, here goes nothing!


                                                        Chapter One

 My fingers work at the lock of my handcuffs as I sit alone in the interrogation room. They left me unsupervised. How silly of them. 
Footsteps sound in the hall and I stop moving. The door opens and a young lady with auburn hair and piercing blue eyes walks in. She approaches the table and spreads a stack of photographs out in front of me. All of them are from multiple time periods. All of them have me in them. 
"Who are you?" the lady asks.
I smirk. "I assume you have some sort of idea, considering you have me here."
She narrows her eyes slightly. "You're either a time traveler or immortal, or something else we haven't heard of. Which is it?"
"I'll tell you who I am if you'll tell me who you are."
She sits in the chair across the table. I notice how gracefully she moves. Odd thing to take note of, I know, but I'm used to perceiving such strange things. 
"My name's Clair," she tells me after a moment. "I'm an agent of A.R.R.O.W. And you are?"
"Arabella Werne. Immortal." 
Clair writes something down on a clipboard. "Since then?" She points at the oldest photograph, from around the year 1826.
I shake my head. "Before that. About... let's see... I was a kid when Rome fell... I became immortal when I was about twenty... so pretty close to a thousand and five hundred years ago."
She blinks. "That... is a long time," she manages after a moment. 
"I noticed."
Adding a note to her clipboard, Clair seems a little disturbed. I wonder what kind of experience she has with this sort of thing. She seems pretty young to be in an organization like this. She can't be younger than sixteen.
A shuffling noise comes from the ventilation shaft above. Clair doesn't seem to notice. 
"Well," she says after a moment. "I think that's all, so I'll go and check in with my boss and make sure there's nothing else I need to find out, and then we'll see about getting you out of here. I'll be back."
She stands up and leaves the room, taking the pictures and her clipboard with her. 
Exactly three minutes later, an overhead ceiling panel slides to the side and three other girls drop into the room. I'd managed to pick the lock on my handcuffs, finally, and I stand up and rub feeling back into my wrists.
"You guys were too loud," I complain. "I thought she'd hear you moving around in the air vent."
One of the girls, Surrea, shrugs. I notice her white blindfold is smudged with dust. "We tried to stay quiet."
"But Naria kept bumping me," Andrea explains energetically, in a much too loud voice. Her dark purple hair is more messy than normal, and her pale violet eyes are wide with indignation.
Naira crosses her arms. "I tried not to." The small girl's sea-green eyes are narrowed slightly, and I notice a bruise forming on her right arm.
"Did you three have some trouble getting in?" I ask. 
They look at each other. "No, not at all."
"You all seem to be in rough shape," I point out. "Come on, you guys have worked with me for years now. You know you can't hide anything."
"Okay, we may have run into a few soldiers on the way in," Surrea tells me. 
Naria nods. "But we took care of them without much fuss."
"They were only number threes," Andrea relates.
"Let's get out of here," I announce. I'll find out exactly what happened later. "Naria, will you silence us?"
She nods and spreads her hands, a deep green shimmer surrounding the four of us. "Done."
I open the door. "Here we go."
"Actually, you're staying here. All four of you."
Andrea clutches my arms. "A number seven. I've never, ever seen a number seven," she whispers urgently. 
"Clair," I smile, feigning unconcern. "Fancy seeing you here."

  To Be Continued